(SMAP) Something Like But Not Exactly (Part 2)

[dictionarysays]

Something Like But Not Exactly
Kimura/Nakai | PG-13 | Part 2

Kimura hates the way his stomach turns in on itself, and all because of the way Nakai’s looking at him right now, as if Kimura’s been in the wrong all this time and he should magically fix it—he never meant to.

 

                “I never meant to. You know, it’s harder to kiss you than you’d think—you’re not exactly the most willing of the bunch.” Nakai makes a face at that and for a split second, Kimura’s the happiest he’s ever been because it means he doesn’t hate him and maybe it’s not entirely his fault and his legs are irrevocably numb after all this time. “I didn’t think you’d want to, you never said anything—“

 

                “I did now—“

 

                “Exactly. Now; and after how long? Believe it or not, I can’t actually read minds.” Kimura chuckles but Nakai’s not laughing. He should be.

 

                He sighs instead, pulling his hand out of Kimura’s, mumbling, “But you’re Kimura Takuya. If anyone can—it’s you.”

 

                That’s when Kimura gets fed up, he pulls away completely, dislodging his legs from underneath him and trying to ignore the pins and needles in his thighs as he gets up, going for his bag.

 

                “Kimura... ?”

 

                He doesn’t turn to look, his lips tingling as he quickly applies chapstick (mostly because he’s trying to replace the feel of Nakai’s lips and not because the lip balm’s that good) and slings his bag across his arm. “When you stop being an idiot we can talk. Until then, I’m going home.”

 

                Kimura knows he can’t avoid him as he tries to leave, so he doesn’t, he sends him a look and he nearly stops, nearly fucks it all and returns to the cushion beside a Nakai who’s chewing on his lower lip and looking like the too-young leader who’d taken everything on his shoulders when none of them had known any better. But he doesn’t.

 

He keeps going, past the studio lobby and out the entrance where his van’s waiting.

 

 

 

The next morning is more meeting than it is recording; Kimura skims through the itinerary as he plays with his yogurt, eating it slowly, savouring the bits of fruit.

 

For the better part of last night he’d been awake, mulling over things, playing with the bottom of his jeans—he still hadn’t figured it out. Nothing Nakai-kun had said had been wrong, he was right; they’d never kissed, at least, not the kind he was looking for. Kimura noticed it, it was hard not to throughout the years when Shingo was coming to him for practice, something about Tsuyopon being too awkward; while Tsuyopon on the other hand was admirably shy about the whole thing so when they kissed, it was never planned; and then there were those really long breaks that Kimura wished would turn longer as he held Goro close, not wanting to leave the custodian’s closet just yet, letting their hips touch.

 

Kimura likes to believe they're close, it’s hard not to be when he’s spent more than half his life with these men—so the kissing and touching felt inevitable. They were curious, growing in front of one another’s eyes, it only made sense that their questions would come in the form of the hesitant press of lips and the shaking whisper of hands on anything they could reach.

 

Nakai was always grumbling about fan service, he believed in not believing in it but Kimura had tried all the same; arms slung over skinny shoulders was all right and a hug could get by if he saw it coming. Nakai dreaded kisses, the older they got the more they seemed to terrify him, but for the sake of all that was entertaining—they’d traded a few, mostly on the cheek, rarely on the lips (those had been quick and meticulously planned before the recordings—‘I initiate it this time, Kimura, just—don’t move, it’ll be like ripping off a bandage’).

 

Now they were in their thirties—they were almost forty and the physical affection between the two was dwindling. Kimura expected it, he tries not to think about it most days and makes do with the laughs they still share and the snug ease that stretches between the two.

 

Kimura’s still thinking about SMAP when someone pulls up a chair beside him and he lets out a sigh of relief when he looks and it’s Goro-chan. He smiles briefly, wrapped in a thin coat and blowing into his hands—outside is cold, probably colder than Goro had dressed for.

 

“Hey,” Kimura puts the itinerary down, focusing on his yogurt and Goro now.

 

“Hi. You’re early; I thought I’d be the first one here.” Kimura shrugs at that, he doesn’t feel like telling him he couldn’t stay any longer in his house, filled with thoughts he wasn’t the day before. “I saw Shingo and Tsuyoshi up front.”

 

“Mm.” He eats another spoon of the vanilla yogurt, pushing his still hot cup of coffee into Goro’s freezing hands. “Hold this, rubbing won’t do anything.”

 

“Ah. Thanks.” Goro smiles sheepishly, almost shyly and Kimura grins, picking at a strawberry—this time of the day is when he loves Goro the most because he’s still soft at the edges and the state of his hair is the last thing on his mind.

 

After a couple more minutes, Shingo drags himself in, Tsuyoshi on his tail; they’re sharing a bagel and talking about something ridiculous (the sleepy maniacal grin all over Shingo’s face gives it away). After a few more, Nakai’s still not in and Kimura frowns, taking a peek at Shingo’s iPhone—he’s late, he’s never usually.

 

“I’m gonna’ go up front, see if he’s here.” Kimura’s up and gone before the others can nod; Goro swats Shingo with the itinerary when he tries to steal Kimura’s seat.

 

                Kimura stalks down the hallway, making it to the front-lobby in record time where he finds a haggard-looking Nakai arguing with their manager. He’s not close enough to hear the entire conversation but he catches phrases like ‘Just this once’ and ‘I really, really shouldn’t go in there’.

 

Kimura doesn’t realize it until his fists are unclenched and he’s pulling Nakai away and into the closest thing he can find, the staff women’s washroom (which he somehow remembers to lock), that he’s mad and knows exactly what Nakai was arguing about. He doesn’t overlook the frustrated twist in his gut when he slams Nakai into the closed door but he does look right through Nakai's flustered glare and keeps him still when he tries to twist away.

 

“What the fuck!” Nakai’s voice is too hoarse and if this were any other day, Kimura would rummage around in his bag until he found some cough drops and force feed them to the older man, but for today, at this very moment, he doesn’t care (he actually does but if he lets up, this won’t go anywhere and he needs this to go somewhere, he needs them to go anywhere but back).

 

“You trying to avoid me? Seriously?  What are you, six?” Kimura’s angry and his hands hold Nakai’s shoulders tighter, pushing him back, fingers slipping into a stronger hold. He wishes he weren’t seeing red and he wishes even more that his heart wouldn’t race so fast. “That’s fucked, Hiro. You—I’d never expect that, not from you. I thought you were going to stop being an idiot.”

 

Nakai’s shaking beneath his hands and his trucker cap is all askew on his head; Kimura looks down, sighing deeply, focusing on Nakai’s tiny feet, anything but his face. Nothing happens (the vent hums, one of the sinks keeps dripping, there’s rustling outside the door and Nakai’s panting, he probably is too).    

 

“I was scared. Okay?” Kimura’s head shoots up, watching Nakai closely, his mouth bowed in shame, eyebrows knit in embarrassment. Kimura nudges Nakai’s sneaker with his own, his throat’s still bubbling with anger, but he needs to hear this too. “It’s not like you can blame me—just last night, you were pissed. I don’t even know what I did wrong.” Nakai pushes up at him suddenly, catching him unawares and Kimura stumbles back, letting go, but Nakai doesn’t run away like he thought he would. He stays by the door, massaging the sore slope of his shoulder, wincing. “Couldn’t have held on tighter? Shit. I’m old, you know.”

 

All Kimura can do is stare, brushing the hair out of his face, he looks Nakai over and he seems so small, he almost wants to apologize but he’s not good at that type of thing, so he stays quiet instead.

 

“So. Yeah. I thought about it last night and I think—no, I want us to kiss more,” Kimura doesn’t mean for his eyebrows to raise but they do and Nakai laughs, all raspy, at the surprised look that must be written all over his face. He doesn’t mind if that means Nakai will be a little less mad and a little more better (later, Kimura will pass Nakai a newly-bought package of cough drops between rehearsals like he didn’t just buy it on his break that says I’m sorry and Nakai will roll his eyes in a way that says all too clearly We’re okay). “I’m not saying I’m gonna’ let you start kissing me on TV or anything, but—dressing rooms should be okay.”

 

Nakai grins and smiles at the same time, and Kimura thinks it’s his laugh lines, but he’s too busy moving in and kissing Nakai (who's fumbling with his cap), that he can’t grin back but he’s sure Nakai gets the gist.



A/N: Okay, self. Way to ship TakuGoro there (is it so wrong that the coffee cup is like, my favourite moment? /SIGHS) I swear, this is a 2TOP 'fic, but somehow every other pairing made it's way in here (can't lie, it was nice and just seemed to work out that way), hahah. I like this, the ending feels a little rushed but I typed up the last three pages of this during my break between classes and (I couldn't add anymore, even with that nagging feeling), so I think that's about it. I've been really wanting to write some 2TOP for a while, so, at least I was able to scratch that itch, hahah. :DD

And yes, I have a thing for Nakai/Kimura/Beanie. What about it?

Comments

[25lalalee36.livejournal.com]

It's so sweet... Cute Nakai-kun getting embarrassed because of kisses on TV and even out of that... :D
I love it...

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Hahah, aw, thanks. I'm glad you found it so sweet.

I'm sure Nakai-kun would balk and flail angrily if sweet & cute & embarrassed were found in the same sentence as his name but oh well. :DD

P.S. I've always loved your icon.
P.P.S. I just realized we aren't friends on lj. Straaaaange. I'm going to add you now (I hope that's not weird). /YOSH

[25lalalee36.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I can imagine him getting angry and maybe a little frustrated,but can't be helped, cause he really is sweet and cute :D I love him in This is love HonKoi SP, that's what I call sweet Nakai :D

P.S. Thank you, but it's not my work :)

[monstakarotte.livejournal.com]

You know it! You simply know it!
...you know how to please me XDD

You eat rice?
that made me laugh... it was so sudden ^^

well, I love how they realize that their always was something between them and I really like the part when Kimura gets pissed because of the "Kimura Takuya" thingy, that was really like him...
ah...somehow I suck at writing proper comments to a story, the only thing I can easily express with words is: I love it!

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Hahahah! /ALWAYS HERE TO PLEASE~~

After I wrote this I honestly thought to myself, monsta' will be able to fully 'ppreciate this, hahah. :DD

WHICH, BTW, REMINDS ME: /MILDLY THREATENS YOU ABOUT YOUR OWN 2TOP COLLAB-'FIC

Hint, hint. ;D

Hahah, yeah, in my mind Nakai would have no problem saying a random thing like that, especially after a kiss with Kim' (because they're so close and comfortable like that)--and it's a genuine question too. If Kim' hadn't had onigiri, the rice taste woulda' been weird, ne? xDD

Mm! Yosh, I'm glad the Kimura Takuya part worked for you and it made sense (I was a little worried people would be all, Eeeeh? Why'd, lyke, Kimutaku leeeeeeeeve?!11?--I think in Kim's case, particularly, of all the people to think of him as his image, you know, KIMURA TAKUYA and not simply as Kimura, normal dood, it would bug the hell outta' him--and I guess that on top of everything else eventually got to him.

Don't worry about it! Your words are awesome and totally appreciated. Commenting 'fics can be difficult sometimes, it's the thought that counts. :DD

[monstakarotte.livejournal.com]

monsta' will be able to fully 'ppreciate this
and you were so right with this thought XD

ahh~ the collab thingy, it's momentary a bit on hiatus, on the one hand because of exams and university start this/next week and on the other hand because we're a bit stuck at some point, well I hope it will work out... ^^'

hm, I think you wrote imura's character quite well, I can totall imagine him being a bit nerved with his own I'm THE Kimutaku image, so it's quite reasonable how he reacts here...

[zombiezahn.livejournal.com]

You should have heard my fangirlie squeeeal when I looked at my friend page and found a new 2TOP ff waiting for me ^^

I sooo loved it when Kimura shoved Nakai into that tiny closet *dies*
and Nakai being Nakai...shy, cute, kawaii~ and the beanie...kyaaaaa!!!


And Kimura/Nakai/Beanie definitely just made it into my favourite pairing list XD
There should be more nakai/kimura/beanie out there!

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Hahaha, on the one hand I'm glad I didn't hear it, on the other; I'm curious. xDD

One half of 2TOP shoving the other half into any enclosed room is always super-sexy times for me, hahah. I couldn't resist, I hadn't been planning on it either but apparently Kim' really wanted to shove Nakai-kun up against a door in a women's washroom. Who was I to stop him? /HA

Nakai is just so Nakai--whether I'm watching him, reading him or listening to him... /SWOONS

AH! Someone who appreciates the beanie too! :DD

Seriously, just try to picture it. Nakai/Kimura/Beanie is a match made in heaven--anything that has to do with 2TOP always involves a hat of some sort (preferably a well worn beanie that Nakai plays with a lot). You can't have 2TOP without the beanie, it's just not right.

Hahah. P:

I'm planning on starting a Nakai/Kim'/Beanie movement. You in? No matter the 'fic, no matter the pairing, N/K/B will somehow always be incorporated. /LETS IMAGINATION RUN WILD

[zombiezahn.livejournal.com]

OMJ!!!
I'm totally in on the N/K/B movement - you can count on me ^^ I want a tag on jent_fanfics and smapxslash for this dream-made pairing XD

monstakarotte and I are currently writing a really stupid 2TOP ff...I ask her to include the beanie in it too >.< (But I guess the ff won't be ready for posting anytime soon...-.-)

[faiee.livejournal.com]

Eep I love you <3 Longer comment later when I get home from work (I scanned through this really quickly, cos' I couldn't stand waiting till I get home) but everyone can see my computer screen, so I really shouldn't be reading this, or commenting on it now. (Not when there's kisses everywhere on the screen! XD)

BUT YES, I LOVE YOU. This made my day XD Laters!

[faiee.livejournal.com]

Okay I HAVE ONE MAJOR COMPLAINT.

WHY DID YOU STOP THERE. MEH. Hahah, my mind's going other places with that kiss that ends up with them both uh, flushed and really late for that meeting. And Shingo stealing that seat eventually despite Goro's protests because clearly, Kimura got very distracted.

I love the whole story -flails-. 2 Tops always has this hotness (thanks to their explosively hot characters) that none of the other pairings do. The other SMAP pairings are cute, and lovable but 2 Tops are just... volcanic.

I totally squealed and flailed a lot! Plus, beanie-hating Kimura and pouting Nakai = LOVE. Uh, okay, on to something mildly more constructive. Let me not try to quote everything.

Nakai’s looking up and Kimura can’t explain it, but he feels twenty again and the way Nakai shuffles his way off the arm and down into the couch;
I love the imagery here! Of Nakai looking all soft and pretty and innocent and nervous and ohsolovablykissable and young.

“You’re terrified,” he says this needlessly and Nakai’s suddenly smacking the side of Kimura’s head and blowing a loud puff of air.
I'm totally fangirling the idea of Kimura being protective of Nakai. Kimura's always protective of his younger bandmates but we usually don't see it with Nakai - they're like comrades. And it's cute and lovely to think that Kimura is just as, if not more, protective of his leader <3 Brilliant :D

*searches for a fragment to quote... and fails miserably at being picky. uh..*
Okay, just plonk in the next few hundred words or so and that's really what I wanna quote. The kisses were SO hot. I love how after Kimura initiates, Nakai takes control - he's NOT that girly in that sense :P AND, am loving the imagery of Kimura's pinkies just being Nakai's ears.

You eat rice?
Uh, duh duh duh? HALLO. HE'S JAPANESE. But so adorkably Nakai.

“I never meant to. You know, it’s harder to kiss you than you’d think—you’re not exactly the most willing of the bunch.”
Awww jealous cute Nakai-kun - how could you think he's loved you less. You idiot, you've made it sooo hard for him to kiss you. I love how Kimura doesn't quite acknowledges it's his fault - because Kimura-kun never will :P And because he's totally right!

“But you’re Kimura Takuya. If anyone can—it’s you.”
I love this line. Love love love. Or rather, I love that he walks off. I think, Kimura would walk off if anyone in SMAP said it. But the fact it's Nakai - Nakai who should understand most, who's been there with him all these years, who knows the human side of him - who says it, makes Kimura totally pissed off.

Kimura likes to believe they're close, it’s hard not to be when he’s spent more than half his life with these men—so the kissing and touching felt inevitable.
-nods head vigorously and has nothing else to say to this but yesyesyesyesyes-

(My comment was too long, but I love your description of how Kimura's kisses with the other SMAP members came about)

it’ll be like ripping off a bandage
HAH. That analogy is just SO Nakai-kun. :D I LOVED THAT LINE. I HAD TO STIFLE A LAUGH IN OFFICE. (By the way, it was impossible to not read this while in office, but I was so afraid that people would see the word "kiss" peppered all over the page. >.<)

The rest of it was gorgeous and I totally loved the shoe nudging and all that stuff. I LOVE HOW IT'S ACTUALLY HOT but all so lovely and caring and soft at the same time. 2 Tops is generally a lot of conflict and stuff, but I love how you mixed their history in and made them so gentle toward each other <3 I'd be italicising everything if I could baby. I love the story and their dynamic SO much. Guh :X

My comment doesn't do your story ANY justice. I loveddd it so, and I wish I wasn't so tired from work so that I could properly leave a comment, but I just didn't want to wait any longer because you totally deserve a HUGE PAT ON THE BACK FOR SUCH A HOT STORY.

<3

P.S. I'm sorry I didn't reply YOUR comment - I was going to, except I saw your story first :D

P.P.S. Did I say I love you already? :D OMG I EXCEEDED THE WORD LIMIT. -fails-

[faiee.livejournal.com]

I'm spamming but I had to say this (because I forgot earlier), I love it when Kimura called Nakai "Hiro". I've never personally used "Hiro" on Nakai because it never sounded quite right to me. He's always been Nakai-kun to me, and to the guys in my head... But, your use of Hiro was timed perfectly. It was so right just there and then (:

I love you bb.

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Hahaha! Why hello long-comments-and-SMAP-flailing soul sister! :DD

Ohgod. I can't even tell you how excited blocks of words make me feel (it's bad!)--I get all, hell yeah, someone like me but mostly: I can reply back with no inhibitions. WOOT!.

And when it's you, it's like, a thousand times that feeling, hahah. YOSH.

First off, why so sweet?! Guh. Seriously. Your words. The comments. THE FLAILS! They're so awesome and nice and coming from you (since I think you and most of the northern hemisphere already knows how I feel about your writing); it's nearly validation, except, I'm not looking for validation to start with (I mean, c'mon now, it's really just an excuse to write 2TOP plz&thx) so it's strange. But mucho cool.

You like it! You really like it. /DANCES IN HER CHAIR FOR A LITTLE BIT

Hahaha, okay, okay, I'm going to start (attempting) to respond to this like a normal person (normalcy? NEVA!).

Um, so, YES. That is exactly what's happening beyond these words, I mean, I was very tempted to write more but it woulda' felt forced and at the same time I thought, PSHAW, knowing my homies they'll fill in the blanks and very sexily too. See? You did! Siiiigh, the imagery (Nakai all flushed and willing while being pressed up against a door and molested (pfft, whatever, it's consensual) by Kimura AND THEN RUNNING LATE FOR THEIR MEETING AND THE REST OF SMAP KNOWING WHY--is this real life? Is their real life like this at all? I seriously hope so).

You nailed it on the head! 2TOP IS volcanic. Like, seriously. The other pairings are adorkable and sweet and I want to take them home and tuck them into bed, but 2TOP? Sure, I'll take them to bed, but for very different reasons. In all seriousness though, if 2TOP WERE ever to actually get together, it would be explosive and the world would spontaneously combust.

Sooooo, on the one hand, I'm happy they (probably but my hopes are still really up!) haven't, but on the other... self-destruction doesn't seem all that bad if you consider the benefits. Hahah. ;DD

Beanie-hating Kimura is totally the epitome of 2TOP for me, I mean, in his POV the things can be really ugly sometimes but essentially, they get in the way of hair-combing and head touching in general. He can't be blamed, hahah. And if Nakai pouts? Isn't that just an awesome bonus for him? /OHYER

If you matter to Kimura-kun, he's gonna' protect ya', be it overtly or otherwise. /SWOONS But yeah, it just seemed like something he'd do and also considering the fact Nakai is being all young-like & nervous & cute so suddenly, comrades worry about one another and I'm really just a sucker for care & hot mixed into one (2TOP FTW).

The kisses were good? Seriously? Good. I was worried about that scene, I was worried mostly that it didn't seem very them or it would come off weird or something, hahah. Ohmanyes. Even though I wrote it (really, the thing took a life of its own), I loved Kim's pinkies below Nakai's ears too. He's cupping leader's face, it's just, urf (and sweet, very sweet). Hahah. Pfft, Nakai, girly? Sometimes. But not in that instance it seems, hahah, if Kim' had mentioned Mako-chan outloud--oi, I don't know if Kimura woulda' come back with his face. xD

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

/CONTINUES

Hahaha, yeah, Nakai chooses to state the obvious. Apparently he's feeling awkward. /HA

Kimura! Acknowledging things are his fault? Pffft. Overated and never happening (even though yeah, he totally has a point--be more willing, Nakai! If you're making faces and grumbling about holding hands, how's the man supposed to eat your face? xDD). Jealous Nakai-kun is actually soooo cute and I think it works in 2TOP (well, not all the time, here and there)--they're just so adork.

Yosh. It's actually ridiculously relieving to read people understanding Kim' walking off--I mean, like you said, it's Nakai-kun, if anyone would know how Kim' feels about "Kimura Takuya" it would be him--so it was certainly a low blow. That's another thing I love about 2TOP! Their history, the complexities, honestly, there can never be enough 'fics written about 'em.

Hahaha, yes, SMAP-on-SMAP experimentation while growing up is something I seriously think must've happened. At least once! I mean, most of 'em hadn't even hit puberty before their debut, there was no way Kimura didn't meet up with Nakai-kun in his dorm and fool around (they're Johnny's, if they're not fooling around with one another, who is?!). /THUMBS UP

Ah. That's good, I think the little descriptions of those kinda' worked (I mean, Shingo so would go to Kim' for practice and as the doting older bro', how can he say no?).

Hahah, you read this in the office? GO YOU. /HANDS YOU SOMETHING AWESOME (NOT SURE WHAT YET) FOR BEING ALL NINJA-SNEAKY-LIKE Good thing I didn't continue, hahah, "kiss" all over the page wouldn't have been nearly as bad as "blow job" or "giant sweaty SMAP-y orgy". xDD

Aww, I know I keep saying how glad I am, but I seriouslyseriously am--and apparently I don't know any synonyms for the word either, hahah. Hot and sweet and lovely and guh is exactly what 2TOP is in my head, so to know you feel the same way? It rocks! :DDD

Hahah, I'm just as bad when I flail over your stuff, I never know what to quote what to not quote sometimes because then my comment will just be faaaaar too long (not that it helps, hahaha)--so it's all good, bb. P:

Doesn't do justice? PFFFFFFT. You wrote me a novel (which was made up of flails and squees and insights and unadulterated love for SMAP--that's more than enough)! I appreciate like, uber-ridiculously-omg much. :DD

/ACCEPTS THE HUGE PAT ON HER BACK HAPPILY

<44

P.S. Don't worry about it, hahah. We always end up having different streams of conversations on various posts anyway. :D

P.P.S. Did I say I love you back already? :DD Hahah, I was terrified I'd exceed it too which is why I continued the rest of this in another post. xDD EXCEEDING THE WORD LIMIT IS ULTIMATE WIN.

P.P.P.S. You mentioned Hiro, hahah. Yeah, that came out of nowhere, I hadn't even realized I wrote until I read it back and I never call Nakai that myself, but, I think Kim' could and it would be all good (I really just love the fact he wants his girlfriend to call him Hiro-chan so dorkably cute!.

Loving you back <44

[yue-akuma.livejournal.com]

OH. MY. GOSH.

It's actually only the second time I read a SMAP fic. You know why? BECAUSE NO ONE WRITES NAKAI/KIMURA. or i don't know where to search, maybe.

But you did. OMG. OMG.

YOU WROTE MY SMAP OTP. I'm going to create a monument to your awesomeness. THIS IS JUST SO EPIIIIIIC! *__________*

The story was nice, and I could really see everything happening, and and and and-------- YOU'RE SO AWESOME. ♥

THE WORLD NEEDS MORE KIMURA KISSING NAKAI. I WANT MOAAAAAAAAR!

Write more please? :D

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Hahahah! The caps. I loved 'em. /GRINS

Guh. Shucks. You flatter me waaaaay too much here, missy, any more and I might let it inflate my non-existent ego, hahah. No but seriously, thank you, I was a little worried about how this 'fic might come across but so far, apparently my concerns were unnecessary.

2TOP is actually the hottest thing. Ever. I don't even know who my OTP is anymore, originally it was ShinTsuyo but over the last coupla' months I've been getting influenced by my fellow SMAP friends and their OTPs and I dunno', I've always been indecisive, hahah.

THEY ALL HAVE CHARMING POINTS! /SWOONS IN INDECISION

I'm obviously glad you think it's epic, hahah, and I'm awesome too? Suhweet. Who woulda' thunk'it. Honestly? It was really fun to do and I've already written two Kimura/Tsuyopon and one ShinGoro 'fic--it was high time I wrote some 2TOP--I had so many ideas bouncing around, this one just so happened to be the one that fleshed itself out. :DD

I will definitely be writing more 2TOP (and SMAP in general), as to when? Thaaaaaaaat's another story. Whenever inspiration hits!

The world is a much better place when Kim' & Nakai-kun are kissing (among other things... ;DD).

Oh, BTW, there's bajillions of SMAP-'fics out there (especially the 2TOP kind), here, this is a great community for that kinda' stuff: smapxslash I can recommend a few writers for you too, if you'd like, I'm fortunate enough to know most of 'em (which consists of a lot of flails and squees in relation to SMAP).

So yeah! Sorry about the long reply. I have a problem.

/THANKS YOU AGAIN

[coeur-delanuit.livejournal.com]

I'm going to comment for real this time and not just in my head, oh yes I am~ Waaaah, 2TOOOOOP! ♥ I can never really decide what my OTP is because I am just addicted to SMAP-shipping of all varieties, but this...is just so perfect. ;o;

They feel so spot on with the characterizations. I'm going to join in on the fangirling of that "Kimura Takuya" spot. Girl, spot on. <3 I definitely agree that he would get angry about that, especially coming from someone who ought to know how much he doesn't like it. It was a very vivid scene as far as accuracy goes. <3

And there really are so many spots, like that little TakuGoro coffee spot, and Nakai being all shy and adorbs but jealous because he's the only one who doesn't get Kimura-kisses~, and the rare but situationally apt "Hiro" usage, and closet kisses are shexyyy, and the rice thing was amusing xD, and Nakai/Kimura/Beanie is one of my fave OT3s omg. <3

Seriously, love this so so much. The world seems determined to get me back on my 2TOP kick lately, and I'm pretty sure this just pushed me over the edge. Gosh I love them. They are just so DYNAMIC together. I just love it. Love it. ♥

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Can I just say before I reply to this properly (HA) that the fact you just used one of my favouritest pictures of 2TOP as a relevant icon makes me squee? Like, I actually went all swoon-y and let my imagination wander like every other time I've drooled over it in my pictures folder.

Just pull Nakai-kun's shirt off already, Kim'--you're not fooling anybody.

Yesyesyes! SMAP PAIRING INDECISION. They're all so awesome in their own unique adorable ways, I mean, how do they expect us to choooooose?! /FLAILS PETULANTLY

Goooosh, seriously, that's really nice of you to say. I think 'fanfics are terrifying sometimes, hahah, mostly because of characterization and how you know, fellow fans picture 'em--they're usually never the same or people may not necessarily agree and other frightening things, hahah. BUT. You said spot on and, well, that makes me feel (spot on) good. Pfft, okay, I don't even know what that meant, but, I'm flattered and glad! So it's a good thing. :DD

You noticed so many spots and thought some of them were vivid? Pshaw, you get all my love (already have it, so... maybe it's not as cool of a gift as I thought it would be, hahah)--and seriously, Nakai/Kimura/Beanie is an OT3 I don't usually get to read--writing it solved that problem for now.

/ENCOURAGES THE SPREAD OF THIS OT3 VERY MUCH SO ;D

And yes, 2TOP is seriously explosive, dynamic, sexy, hilarious, dynamite, volcanic and just UNF. A 2TOP is a very good thing to have, hahah. Thank you for loving this!

/LOVES YOU BACK WHOLEHEARTEDLY <4

[coeur-delanuit.livejournal.com]

Lol omg the picture sends my imagination into overdrive every time, too. Nakai just looks so presh and unsuspecting, and Kimura is so cocky and >:] as Nakai's shirt ~mysteriously lifts~ on Kimura's side, fahahaha. Kimura just totally looks like he's doing something naughty...and knows he's doing something naughty.

It's too hard! I'm so impressionable. It's like, whatever the most recent SMAP-ship to cross my vision grabs my attention, except now I'm feeling pretty stuck on 2TOP. Or maybe I'm just perpetually stuck on them all, and they take turns knocking the others over to be on top.

I'm too scared to write SMAPfic |D, so I bask in all you lovely writers who have shown up to fulfill that fix for us. To some degree, there's def room for differing interpretations, but this definitely matches with my own, so! ;D And LOL, err, sorry -- "spot on" is like ~perfect~ ~exactly correct~ ~etc. etc.~, so yes, it was a good thing. xD ♥

*scoops up the love and cherishes it* :3 Good for you, representing the Nakai/Kimura/Beanieness, bb. And uh, this is kind of a tangent, but speaking of Nakai and beanies, I really do have a weird crush on his beanie-and-glasses look, lolol, idek.

The world also needs more 2TOP love. My heart always does a happy little skip with even the smallest 2TOP anything. xD;

:* ♥

[hereticpop.livejournal.com]

OMFG YES.

I MEAN, HELLO. I MEAN, KIMURA/NAKAI. I MEAN, OMFG YES.

it seems this comment will be a struggle between me wanting to be coherent and me not even trying. uhm. well, I see you added me as a friend and I sure as fuck hope you didn't do it by accident because I freaking love you. ASDTFGHUIJKASURDYCVBNOKM

am not sure if I should start with some proper commentage full of sense except not really, or quotes and CAPSLOCK ABUSE, but I guess I'll go with the latter and probably ramble away in the middle anyway. but there's so much I'd like to quote goddammit. so far I've only exceeded the character limit of a comment once and I'd rather not do it again because it makes me realise I fail at life. oh well.

it’s fitting and there’s now a silver guitar all over his chest
AND HERE I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO BE AN AWESOME FIC BECAUSE I CAN SO SEE IT. don't make me explain what I mean but IT'S JUST SO THE KIMURA I LOVE.

“You have to promise you won’t ask me why—so, just say yes.”
there's an amazing reasoning there and I LOVE THIS NAKAI TOO. he's all nervous and all and yet he's firm and demanding. this is why I love this pairing, because Nakai is the only one I can see actually telling Kimura to do something, not asking.

It gets quiet and it might have something to do with the fact Nakai had shut the door after coming in unannounced, but Kimura thinks there’s more to it than that.
GAHHH, JUST GAHHHDFGHJK. this is exactly the style I love. when it might but there's more to it and you create this layered reality that is so full of unsaid things and they're practically swimming in the air. I don't know what that is supposed to mean either, I can't explain it well at the moment, but.

“Seriously? You’re deaf? Kiss me, Kimura.” Nakai says, exasperated and rolling his eyes.
THIS AGAIN, THIS. this is exactly the Nakai I mentioned: he comes with this demand and somehow manages to get irritated at Kimura as if he was the one who came up with the idea. HOW HOT CAN YOU GET, NAKAI?
[dammit, that's the first time I proclaimed Nakai hot. this fandom ruins me and it feels so good on top of that.]

A lot more of the Nakai Kimura’s used to shows through and he’s surprised—he thought if anything, he’d be less him right about now.
HOLY FUCK I JUST LOVE YOUR STYLE.

Kimura can’t decide if Nakai’s crazy or stupid, but he does know he only has one life to live and if Nakai can go so far as asking him for a favour, well, then he can probably kiss him too.
AND LOVE IT MORE.

Kimura can’t stand it anymore and he pulls Nakai’s beanie completely off, stuffing it under the cushion; all Nakai can do is shout and frown simultaneously, trying to stifle a pout. Kimura grins, “I don’t kiss people who look like they have a mole rat on their head.”
LOL, Nakai/Kimura/beanie was never my pairing of choice, but I think I could actually get convinced. 8D

“Do it, Takuya.”
OMG FUCK ZRYXCYIVUBINMKKJHGFDSWDFGHNJ I mean, yup. like I said. I love how Kimura makes Nakai so frustrated. YES YOU'RE HOT TOO, TAKU. BUT THEN YOU ALWAYS ARE.

Kimura tilts his head to kiss along Nakai’s throat and up towards his chin, where Nakai meets him halfway and gasps when their lips touch. Kimura stays completely still, he doesn’t dare move; it’s up to Nakai to do what he wants with this.
I think I pretty much died in this moment. the rest of it is me speaking because I haven't realised I'm dead yet.

“What’s a guy gotta’ do to get a little tongue around here?” Nakai smirks more than he says this, somehow murmuring into Kimura’s mouth, through their tongues and teeth.
here I would've died IF I WASN'T ALREADY DEAD YES THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

and I'd have to paste here the next two paragraphs so I'll just skip quoting and say that the whole description of them kissing is plain perfect. <3

“Sure, there’s been bistro and some lives, but—you’ve kissed Shingo before. Tsuyopon too. I don’t even wanna’ know what you and Goro’ve done.”
:D
because: 1. I ship KimuraxSMAP; 2. I ship KimuraxGoro and today is apparently my day of showing my love for KimuraxGoro, so this makes me extremely happy in my pants.

[and I exceeded the character limit, WOOHOO!]

[hereticpop.livejournal.com]

“But you’re Kimura Takuya. If anyone can—it’s you.”
AHHHH. way to go, Nakai. but I love this whole the Kimura Takuya thing and all the angst it brings about.

He keeps going, past the studio lobby and out the entrance where his van’s waiting.
and actually I was scared for a second it would end at that because there was a blank space and I didn't scroll the page - and it would have been complete but a bit too open, that is, it would have made me a bit sad. I SAY YES TO HAPPY FICS. angst ruins my life.

and I just kind of won't continue to quote and to hit my keyboard at random, because it's a laptop's keyboard and it'd be troublesome if I broke it and I don't think I'd come up with anything original except that I need to mention that I liked the Goro-coffee moment a lot. and the ending is absolute perfection and I can like, read it again and again and it makes me smile everytime.

all in all, because school made me believe in summing things up at the end when I try to appear like I have something to say, all in all, I enjoyed and loved this fic on two different levels. one is what is going on and two is how it's going on, i.e. the way you write. I don't think I have expressed even how of my love for the latter in this comment, got too distracted with capslocking. I'm not too good with capslocking, although I guess you're kind of lucky I haven't had coffee this evening. :D once I start talking nonsense, I kind of can't stop. see? stop. now. oh god.

I take it Kimura/Nakai is not your OTP? which is a shame, because it's sort of mine because you write is so damn well. uh. I LOVED IT. that's it.

[I sure hope I didn't fuck up the html anywhere in this comment because it'd be a hell of a comment to fuck up. >.>']

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

Your comment is nearly as long as this one-shot and I love that <44

Seeing this pop-up in my e-mail made my turkey weekend that more awesome, like, actually. This (and your other comment), your 'fic, faiee's 'fic and stuffing made me give thanks. :DD

I'm going to try SO HARD to keep my response as reasonably long as possible (/HA)--but it might just work this time! Since I should be studying chinese characters for my mandarin test tonight, but responding to things is just so much fun sometimes.

Never fret! I added you because of our common interests andand anybody with an icon (points at your KIMURA) that uses that picture (during the summer I swear I drooled over the picture at least three times a day, no lies) has no other choice but to be my lj-friend for lyfe. /YOSH No but seriously, your ramblings are amusing too and your 'fic! Deargod, I can't wait to comment under it--I will, I promise.

If it's any consolation? I freakin' love you too! I see much fun & flails in the future for us~ >D

Can I also just say your words were totally awesome and I was grinning the whole time and nodding and just. Yeah. It's really nice to read people getting things and feeling things and other great things, hahah. Don't worry 'bout the rambling and overall incoherency--I'm the exact same, I try to rein it in but it's usually to no avail.

/ATTEMPTS TO BEGIN A REAL REPLY NOW
/DOOOOOOOOOOOM

Guitars on Kim's chest are my life! Anything on his chest, really. Or you know, nothing at all (I think I'm partial to the latter). I've always had a thing for his flannel/plaid tendencies. Nothing else matters in the world when he's wearing plaid--I get the feeling it stems from my love of lumberjacks that started when I was 4. And now plaid is back and I'm a happyhappy camper. /STORY END

OMGYES. Nakai is totally domineering and Kimura likes it that way and he's the only thing that can order that always (it frustrates me to no end how consistent it is) sexy man. I've always loved their dynamic; they're the only pairing that's legitimately downright hot. Every other pairing has this element of cute and sweet and gush, but 2TOP? They're out of this world.

Simply put, they get things going in my pants. /OHYER

I can't even begin to explain how relieved I am that the dynamic worked for you and their interactions made sense and that there was some hot. Outside opinions are waaaaaaay better than my own; coz I'm too close to it, I just think it's lame sometimes.

Hahaha, yes. Another person who may just possibly join the N/K/B-side. Fuck cookies, we've got 2TOP. :D

Shucks. Thanks (about liking the kissing, that is). I'm slowly getting back into the writing-kissing-and-everything-else game (it's been months upon months since I've wrote kisses it feels like, SMAP has slowly been breaking away at that wall), so I still worry about how it comes across but mostly if it's too long-winded or you know, just, good at all. Totally appreciated.

Um, so, like, I approve of your KimxSMAP/KimxGoro ship a lot. I mean, Kim plus anything is explosive hot, but put him with the other boys than you get hot & complexities & history & gck. Kim/Goro is a pairing that came out of nowhere and stole my heart (mostly loins)--it's hot, but not 2TOP hot, I don't know, I sense more sweet between the two (yes, yes, I heart protective Kim' on most days (all days) ) and a part of me dies every time they share a smile (especially the I-don't-think-anyone's-looking kind). Kimura also bites his arm a lot (I like the train of thought that comes out of that every time).

You exceeded the character limit! WAY TO WIN AT LIFE.

I want to apologize for the terrible transitioning and relevancy btw in this reply--imagine an essay without an introduction sentence, thesis and really crappy meat. I'm trying to reply in order here, hahah, sooooo, it must make some semblance of sense somewhere in the world. P:

[dictionarysays.livejournal.com]

/EXCEEDS CHARACTER LIMIT TOO

Seriously. Twice in one day. When will I stop?

But yes! It's funny actually, as I was writing, once I got to the Kim' leaves part, for a split second I thought, am I ending it here?!--but I couldn't do that, it didn't feel as complete as it could be and HELL YES, HAPPY 'FICS FTW. I like angst sprinkled in between, sure, but I still want things to end on a good note (I don't need no princes on horseback, but a salute to reality and the idea that sometimes things can work out is good with me). It also gave me an excuse to write in the other pairings too. ;D

Yesyes to Goro-coffee moment. Shit, TakuGoro. Why so sweet and always in the back of my mind? You like the ending? YOSH. I'm still weary about it but, that's awesome to read, all the same. 'Absolute perfection' is waaaaay too flattering of you, but, I mean, I'll still take that and keep it close and never let it go. xDD

Hahaha, points to you for summing it up like school taught us to. It's because of school I use words like 'in sum' & 'therefore' & 'all in all' on the internetz. It feels wrong but conclusions must be drawn or I don't feel like I've ended a comment! I'm also a huge fan of nonsense and the inability to stop, so seriously. It's all gravy with me. :D

At this point in time, I'm seriously up in the air in terms of who my OTP is. I don't even know if ShinTsuyo still is and when I get drawn into pairings like 2TOP it's like, how the hell do I chooooose? It probably doesn't help that I read every single pairing and flail over 'em and watch all their pairings--I'm just perpetuating this indecision shit. DD:

THANK YOU. Um, yeah. Capslock is always an easy way to end things.

Seriously. Thank you! I was hella' amused (and I think you're great) :DD

[g-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Love again! And so not getting any work done today! LOL! I'll get to that tomorrow. Yes, reading fic at work since I happen to look at my email, and saw a lj msg and clicked on it, and remembered I wanted to check out your fic, and started, and now I can't stop! I love the way you write and all the descriptions draw beautiful pictures in my head. I prolly look like an idiot at my desk as I giggle and guh and omg as I read this. but oh well...moving on to the next story!!