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The Month Kimura Nearly Threw His Phone into Tokyo Bay
Tsuyoshi/Kimura
| PG-13 | Part 6

“Tsuyopon! Enough with the apologies already—“

“Shingo’s right. I mean, it’s not like you ran over a police officer or anything.” Kimura doesn’t know how he manages to say this and smirk. But he likes that Goro has the ability to blush out of shame as Nakai thumps the side of Kimura’s arm hard. Shingo’s squeezing the life out of Tsuyoshi, but there’s no room for complaint and the way Nakai’s rubbing at his eyes and the look on Goro’s face—Shingo may be squeezing out his life, but SMAP was pouring all their love in.

“You’re the first one he’s seen, you can stop strangling him now.” Shingo looks as if he’s going to ignore Nakai (again) but Tsuyoshi’s head finally appears and his hair is all mussed and his eyes all red.

“It’s okay. I’m all right.” Shingo cackles in victory and manages to pump a fist in the air while spinning Tsuyoshi around with his other arm. Nakai gets up with a huff and slinks over to the two; hitting the back of Shingo’s head and tugging Tsuyopon out of his possessive grip. Kimura sees right through Nakai though and knows he wants in on the love and somehow through it all he doesn’t notice a sheepish Goro come up from behind and rest his forehead against Tsuyoshi’s ear. He doesn’t say a word but Tsuyopon’s mumbled ‘thank you’ says it all, as does Nakai trying to inconspicuously clear his throat as he plays with the bottom of Tsuyoshi’s shirt.

As Kimura tries to gather up the courage to go over and tousle Tsuyopon’s hair, touch his neck, something—it’s in this very moment when Nakai is holding Tsuyoshi, Shingo is nestling him from behind and Goro’s murmuring the story about his visit and eel that proves just how married the two are; that Kimura realizes just how much of his life actually is SMAP (even with two beautiful girls, a wife, and a string of successes and failures) and he wouldn’t change a single thing for the world.


He waits it out and finally Nakai is asked to do a read-through, Goro’s stylist wants to try something new (Goro balks but with enough of Shingo’s prods and Tsuyoshi’s little smiles, he concedes and leaves too), and Shingo’s tethered to Tsuyopon’s side.

Kimura gets up and is surprised he makes it over to Tsuyoshi’s side because his tea-brown eyes are on him the whole time and he wishes he’d stop looking so scared.

“Tsuyoshi.” Kimura's voice comes out lower, softer than he thought it would; but he couldn’t be anything else because his neck is tingling and the spot right behind his ear is probably red (he’s glad for his Mr. Brain hair). He knows he has to do something soon because if he doesn’t, what would Tsuyopon think? The unanswered phone calls were enough; tough love could only go so far—even if everything about this was tough and completely consistent with love.

Kimura decides to stop thinking, just for once and reaches over, messing up Tsuyoshi’s short hair, it’s a little coarse but the tender upturn of Tsuyoshi’s lips and the peep of white teeth as Kimura grins so big his face might as well break—it’s totally worth it, all of this, even the knowing smirk drawn across Shingo’s face as he lets out a ‘whoo!’ and dances between them.

“You're good.” Kimura wants to be able to say more (and touch Tsuyoshi more), say everything else he had been thinking about at night for three weeks and during the day when he was forced to laugh like an idiot on camera for a shoot, but if he lets the words bubble up past his lips, there’d be no turning back. He doesn’t need validation (he just wants Tsuyoshi to know).

So he chucks Tsuyoshi’s sharp chin fondly, letting his knuckles graze the soft skin and stores the feeling (his stomach suddenly bloomed into caterpillars that were changing into butterflies) for another day.

Kimura spares a glance in Shingo’s direction, he’s completely turned away, and the way Tsuyoshi’s nose crinkles and how his smile never falls lets Kimura know that maybe, just maybe, this could be all right. He leans in and touches Tsuyoshi’s mouth with his own for as long as he possibly can before he pulls back, ears burning, mouth tingling; Tsuyoshi’s cheeks so pink that Kimura knew if Shingo wasn’t looking between them (really lost) and if he wasn’t married with two kids and if for a couple of minutes none of this would exist—he’d kiss him again, he’d kiss him so he’d never have to say sorry again because Kimura's bad at it, but mostly, he’d kiss him again because he loves him for more than SMAP, he loves him for him and not being there for Tsuyopon was the hardest thing he had ever done.

Kimura purses his lips, embarrassed, and tries to distract himself with the lock of black that's hanging from Tsuyoshi’s brow. Tsuyoshi, on the other hand, attempts to wriggle away from Shingo’s questioning stare (Shingo’s big hands are wrapped around Tsuyoshi’s arm, ‘you are blushing—why?’) but Kimura catches the smile-laugh that ghosts across his thin lips and he has no regrets (the next day, before the live they've barely rehearsed for, Kimura corners Tsuyoshi outside the noisy dressing room and captures him in a tight hug, the kinda hug where he hides his face into the shivering slope of Tsuyopon's neck and murmur-breathes three little words that stay strung between them—even when they perform an hour later and Kimura brushes the side of Tsuyoshi-kun's neck with the back of his hand knowing he's really touching every single thing they've done).

Kimura knows there's going to be times when there's too much cloud and not enough sun; but when Tsuyoshi’s knocking his knees against his own like that and Shingo’s asking ‘what did I just miss?!’; all he can do is breathe, smack Shingo’s head and thank his lucky stars because he knows Goro will be back in a few and Nakai's just around the corner.



Holy mackerel! This was a work-in-progress for far too long. I had no idea it would end up as epic as it did (I had watched Tsuyoshi's Return SxS special for the bajillionth time and was struck with inspiration—I know, say what?! ANOTHER Tsu/Kim-one. But for the record, I was well into this badboy before The Highest High wriggled its way in, hahah). Um, overall? I like this (mostly for the bits and pieces that come together to make something I'm not completely embarrased to share). It's a bit angsty at parts and I wasn't sure if Kim' would be as mellowdramatik as I think I made him here and there—but the good thing about fanfics are exactly this: Liberties can and WILL be taken 8DD I have another epically-long one-shot waiting to be finished (I started it around the same time as this one and again, it's angst, like, wtf, I love rom-com, I don't know why I write angst). /deflates I kinda' hope people like this, I mean, is it at least reasonably realistic? Even a little would do me fine at this point (in terms of characterization, I get the feeling I may have taken a lot of liberties—that, and I clearly have a Shingo-chan bias HA). This badboy clocked in at 7,172 words, I mean, jeebus, I doubt I'll be doing this once school starts (although I am kinda' three chaps into a SMAP multi-chapter thing because they're so inspiring and I love them and I want to make them use outhouses P:). So, before this note ends up as long as the fic', yeah, just a little backstory to the story? Hahah, I don't know, do with this as you will.

/GOES OFF TO HAVE SOME SORT OF LIFE NOW... NOT

Date: 2010-09-09 01:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] faiee.livejournal.com
WOW that was epic - I sped read through everything (since its a slow morning!) while hoping no one sneaks peeks at my computer and realises two guys are kissing XD

Will leave a longer (and less useless) comment later (when I get home and reread it more thoroughly) but yay to multi-chaps SMAP love :D (there isn't enough of that!)

Loved this :D (And yes, you so have a Shingo-chan bias :D

P.S. Finally the emo-nemo Kimura icon I have is appropriate

Date: 2010-09-09 01:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rz-jocelyn.livejournal.com
“Shingo’s right. I mean, it’s not like you ran over a police officer or anything.”

This had me cracking up so badly that it's kinda sad really. XD So so typically Takuya. The fact that Goro blushes in shame and Nakai whacks Takuya because of it just makes the moment more awesome.

This,

Shingo may be squeezing out his life, but SMAP was pouring all their love in.

♥♥♥

And, your fic has just made me fall head-over-heels in love, deeper than I already am, for TakuTsu. The final moment between them (Tsuyoshi and Takuya are just so adorably embarrassed, yet you can so feel the love between them <333), the culmination of all the TakuTsu love throughout the fic, everything just reminded me of why I love them as much as I do, and continue to love them the more I see/read/discover about them.

As for the beautiful angst and melodrama, well, considering my own track record, I second you in saying:

the good thing about fanfics are exactly this: Liberties can and WILL be taken

ROFL! XD XD XD

Thank you for this wonderful fic! XD XD XD

Oh, and please don't feel obligated to reply all my comments. *sheepish smile* I apologize for the spam rambling. XD XD XD You just really brought out the fangirl in me. ♥

Date: 2010-09-11 01:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsuristyle.livejournal.com
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU oh my goodness

*breathes*

This was beautiful and vivid and I just know it's going to be all I can think about for the rest of today with a huge grin on my face. Your writing. is. amazing. It's so stream-of-consciousness and run-on sentences and packed with little details and it's probably the exact opposite of my own writing style but it makes me melt out of my chair and I love it so much.

but mostly, he’d kiss him again because he loves him for more than SMAP, he loves him for him and not being there for Tsuyopon was the hardest thing he had ever done.
There are a billion lines I want to quote and flail over but this one is where I got a little teared up. I remember being kind of bitter at hearing how Kimura hadn't talked to Tsuyoshi at all, and how he and Nakai had said it was all for Tsuyoshi's sake. So I really love this perspective on it, with Kimura's intentions being semi-noble but mostly being afraid to pick up the phone and talk, and how Tsuyoshi's absence affects him nearly as much it affects Tsuyoshi.

And that kiss! How is it that one quick little kiss makes me so giddy with happiness? *sighs dreamily*

(The hopeless Nakai/Tsuyoshi fangirl in me also wants to jump up and down and point happily at the bit about Nakai playing with the bottom of Tsuyoshi's shirt. Yay♥)

eee sorry for the long comment, hopefully it wasn't too incoherent XD I don't usually beg people to keep writing fic but PLEASE KEEP WRITING FIC :D:D:D

Date: 2010-09-11 03:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dictionarysays.livejournal.com
Hahaha. Yeah, we all know Kim' would be mean and say that. First off it's just so TakuGoro and secondly, he'll say whatever's on his mind. Which I love.

I'm so glad you caught that line! The SMAP pouring love and all. I think that's my favourite line in this whole 'fic. As soon as I wrote it I thought, 'Yeah. It fits.' and just :D and it's SMAP love.

Oh TakuTsu. I think I really started noticing the pairing when I watched a clip where an interviewer asked Tsuyoshi who he loved the most in SMAP and he replied Kim' and Kim' was all huh and I swear for a split second Shingo was thinking it would be him. I'd say Tsuyopon and Shingo find Kim' to be the coolest.

This 'fic may as well have been ShinTaku considering how covert the TakuTsu was for most of it, hahah. But thank you so much for being able to appreciate that and find it by peeling back some of this stuff. I was hoping it would be a growth of some sort, especially by the end (I had re-written and added on to the end until just before I posted this so it was mildly difficult). I'm definitely glad I didn't ruin your love for the two, hahah. :D

Oh liberties~~ I do love 'fic for that, but at the same time, I'm always terrified fans might think you're taking too many liberties and stone you for it or something HA. So it's good to see you're in the same boat, hahah, you know what I mean. xDD

PAH. More like thank you for the wonderful (and totally unnecessary but I still love 'em for all they're worth) comments! Honestly. You had made my two days because of it.

It's that bigger of a deal for me because of how big of a fan I am of your own work (I've read all your SMAP-fics probably two times by now and they're still so amazing and your characterization--gck, I want to be half as good as that). I've just been a bad fan in that I don't think I've commented on your stuff (/LURKING FTW), but trust me when I say, you, tsuristyle and faiee are my favourite SMAP-writers, so in turn, thank you for all of your awesomewonderful work. :DD

I didn't feel obligated, BTW. I really just wanted to. I couldn't resist! /FLAILS IN THANKS ONCE MORE AND DOESN'T WANT YOU TO FEEL OBLIGATED TO REPLY EITHER

Date: 2010-09-11 11:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] faiee.livejournal.com
I think I've run out of anything intelligent to say. My vocabulary's no match for your beautiful fic - but in case you're NOT sick of me repeating myself over and OVER again:

“Shingo’s right. I mean, it’s not like you ran over a police officer or anything.” Kimura doesn’t know how he manages to say this and smirk. But he likes that Goro has the ability to blush out of shame as Nakai thumps the side of Kimura’s arm hard.
Awww and with that line, SMAP's back to being good ol' SMAP with 5 people. Normal and entirely too lovable. I love how Goro always gets implicated whenever they tease Tsuyoshi about his incident - and it's really just to comfort Tsuyoshi, without being obvious. And Goro doesn't mind the least bit...

Kimura sees right through Nakai though and knows he wants in on the love
BECAUSE NAKAI LOVES TSUYOSHI TOO. (I'm sorry >.< I know this is a lovely Kimura/Tsuyoshi fic, but I couldn't help but say that). I loved how Nakai played with Tsuyoshi's hem too!!! Yikes. Okay, enough Nakai/Tsuyoshi fangirling.

“You're good.”
I love this line :D I love how it conveys SO much.

maybe, just maybe, this could be all right.
And I wanna quote about the whole paragraph? But anyway, that paragraph was perfect. Their love is just so... pure, in a way. >.< You totally brought out what I feel about SMAP in general - that they're generally not gay, but they love each other so much, that it transcends sexuality. They don't love men, they just love each other for who they are. (I don't know if that made sense to you.)

Kimura knows there's going to be times when there's too much cloud and not enough sun; but when Tsuyoshi’s knocking his knees against his own like that and Shingo’s asking ‘what did I just miss?!’; all he can do is breathe, smack Shingo’s head and thank his lucky stars because he knows Goro will be back in a few and Nakai's just around the corner.
And life will be okay, when all 5 members of SMAP are together. The ending's just so happy, and perfect and I'm glad, because I like angst, but I hate sad endings. ♥

I can't believe you're jealous of me -refers to your earlier comment-. You wrote such an epic fic! I don't think I could ever commit to writing such a long fic without getting sick of myself. I had a few ideas bouncing around, but I never got to them because they were simply too long.

Plus, it's more than obvious that I love all of SMAP, but I do have a bias for certain people and pairings. Kimura/Tsuyoshi has never been one of my favourites, but you made me love them sooo much. I'm just sighing in contentment. I love reading something good. And this was good.

I wanna selfishly say, PLEASE DON'T GET A LIFE AND LEAVE ME WITHOUT FICS OR ICONS. ): I love you! ♥

Date: 2010-09-13 12:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rz-jocelyn.livejournal.com
LOL! The day that Takuya stops being mean like that is the day that he's not Takuya. *smirks* TakuGoro are so made for each other because of how 'M' Goro is to Takuya's 'S'. (I still ROFL every time I watch the Love Awards episode where Tsuyoshi is asked whether he's 'M' or 'S', and his answer is "case by case". Tsuyopon~ How epic are you?! XD)

Haha! I'm glad that you share my love for that line. I too remember reading it and just going, "That's a stunning line by itself, but it is so utterly brilliant because it is so right for this." And the fact that it totally tweaks my weakpoint of paradoxes and SMAP love made it that much better for me. XD

I actually loved how you reflected TsuTaku against ShinTaku in this fic. If they were in a three-way relationship, I can totally see it being played out this way. You have Shingo and Tsuyoshi, who are best friends; Takuya and Shingo who are expressive in their big/little brother affection and dynamic; and Takuya and Tsuyoshi, who have a more quiet relationship with the ocassional burst of expressiveness. And it really brought out how different and how similar both TsuTaku and ShinTaku are in terms of dynamics, and how each of them actually sort of adapt themselves to suit each relationship's needs.

That interview clip just made me squeal <333 Takuya's the more expressive and demonstrative one in his friendship with Tsuyoshi (even if it does sometimes come across as tough "tsukkomi" love ROFL!), so I think he tends to underestimate Tsuyoshi's regard for him. Which leads to squeal worthy moments like this~~~

I think the moment I fell in love with TsuTaku was when I was watching their triathalon batsu game. That final moment when Tsuyoshi jumped out to surprise Takuya at the finish line so that they could cross it together was just *melts* It touched me even more because Takuya actually had a severe cold that day(even though he managed to hide it from Tsuyoshi when he was together with Tsuyoshi *rolls eyes but melts completely at Takuya's stubbornness in being strong so that he doesn't worry the younger member*), and he was really suffering through the final leg of the challenge, so to see Takuya being the vulnerable one and Tsuyoshi being the encourager was just *fangirl flial*

*blushes* Truly you honour me. XD XD XD I'm just really, really glad that you enjoy them. But you're way too humble for your own good. (This brilliant, brilliant fic exploring so many different aspects of the SMAP members is proof.) You are one of the SMAP writers that I love reading *huggles* and that's why it makes me feel so high and wonderful when you tell me that you like my fics. They're just my way of exploring and learning more about the SMAP members (really, joining the SMAP camp only in the late 2009 was such a bad idea >.< There's just so much out there to catch up on).

Oh, and I do apologize if I come across as overly forward or offensive in my replies. *sheepish smile* I'm really bad at expressing myself, so... (which is probably the reason why I tend to stick to reviewing fics rather than commenting on discussion entries XP).

And, really, I was not obligated! <333 I really, really love reading your comments and replying them (the longer the comment, the better in my opinion ROFL!).

Date: 2010-10-10 01:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hereticpop.livejournal.com
AND IT'S ME AGAIN. I should already stop for my own good but somehow I still keep coming back to reading/writing fic since last night, no matter what I try to get done in the meantime. I suppose it's best to just give in sometimes. :D

I've had this fic in memories since you posted it, for reading later, but didn't get to doing it until today. because, I won't lie, this pairing isn't in my top 3 list, actually not in my top anything list. but if it's well-written, I can read anything and as I already discovered that I love your style, I wanted to read it all of a sudden. [and I'm trying to write a little Kimu/Tsuyo drabble and have no ideas at all and so I came for inspiration too.]

not surprisingly, I loved the way it was written. you use so many of my favourite 'tricks' [for a lack of better word right now] while writing that it's almost unbelievable. and I think I haven't mentioned that last time - the parentheses [or however you spell it. brackets. uhm. whichever it is.]! I love'em. and parentheses in parentheses! it's like morning sex and a coffee in bed later. *oh yeah, watch me get so~ creative with metaphors~*

you chose a very interesting situation for the background and I do think that writing the -suspension times- [be it Tsuyo's or Goro's] is rather hard to do without falling into a cliche. not that I recall many fics about it, but somehow it just seems to be easy to fall into bad angst. [becuase clearly there is bad angst and good angst] and! - let me now get tangled in my own words before I properly explain what I want to say - and although I'm not particularly in love with your Kimura here; angsting Kimura just doesn't work for me too well becuase he's the one thing that's supposed to be strong and certain in the world and if he is lost, then the humanity is a bit too depressing overall; I think he is still not out of character, i.e. you made this realistic. what I mean is, for an angsting Kimura, this one here is the one I can accept.

but I will have to cheat on him for once anyway and say that I ACTUALLY ADORED SHINGO THE MOST. he is absolutely brilliant from the beginning to an end and I'm happy you have a Shingo bias if this is what we get out of it. I could see his face and hear him saying all those things throught the whole story. and I'm also glad that I can sort of conjure a Kimu/Shingo out of it. or even Kimu/Shingo/Tsuyo. NOW IF THAT ISN'T A SPLENDID IDEA.

OH OH I think an inspiration [or two] just hit me! yes and thank you very much. :D

the general outburst of member ai at the end satisfied me to no end and even gave me a little goosebumps - I'm the kind of person that gets goosebumps occasionally when reading/watching something moving. and the kiss was so sweet and Shingo not noticing and before that the Goro teasing and Nakai being Nakai through and through! so, so good.

I'm filled with love right now. I'm going to be coming back for more. so tell me if you don't want me to even if I'm going to anyway.

Date: 2010-11-22 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nansuki.livejournal.com
This is actually my second time reading it, but I didnt comment the first time so I decided to do that now.

TT^TT I LOVE this!! Seriously, the end brought tears to my eyes. I can totally picture them they way you described - as if these events really happened. Lol. I Haven't seen Tsuyopon's return, but I've seen Goro's and I think you captured their feelings & excitement very well!
Can you imagine if Kimura actually did throw his phone into the river? XD I'm guessing he would regret it right after throwing it in.

Its true about the cellphone vibrating...its annoying...it always startles me!
"Just tell them you didn’t do it. You’d get away with murder, never mind a broken prop sword if you smiled that idol smile of yours.""Shingo if you don’t sit, I’ll make you sit."
Ah Shingo...never change. Lol!!

Date: 2011-06-24 02:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] girltype.livejournal.com
I printed this bad boy out and read it all at work. I think my coworkers were overly concerned with me laughing and just awwwwwwww-ing all by myself in the corner for the last couple of days. This was epic and oh so~ impressive. I loved this. ALL OF IT. I think I'll find myself quoting this for days to come. It's been TOO long since i've read a multi-chapter je fanfic and so happy to have taken my time in reading this one. I don't think I can love Tsuyoshi anymore as I do right now! THANK YOU. This is gem. A GEM.

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